The city didn’t care who you used to be.
They cared if you showed up before sunrise and kept showing up.
That decision kept us alive. It also made me a target.
By middle school, it was routine. People pinched their noses dramatically when I walked past. Chairs slid away from me in group work. Fake gagging sounds followed me down hallways. I learned where to sit alone, where to eat quickly, where to disappear.
Behind the vending machines near the old auditorium became my safe place. Quiet. Forgotten. Invisible.
At home, I lied.
Every afternoon, my mom came in exhausted, peeling off rubber gloves, her hands red and swollen.
“How was school, mi amor?” she asked, smiling like she hadn’t just hauled other people’s waste for ten hours.
“It was good,” I said. “I sat with friends. Teacher says I’m doing great.”
She lit up every time.
“Of course you are. You’re the smartest boy in the world.”
I couldn’t tell her the truth. She already carried too much: my father’s death, debt, double shifts, and the weight of a life that veered off course. I refused to add my loneliness to that pile.
So I made a promise. If she was going to break her body for me, I would make it worth it.
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