For three years, I had been shrinking myself to fit into the spaces Ryan left for me. I had been accepting “jokes” that were actually insults and “support” that was actually control. I had been waiting for him to propose a future to me, never realizing that I held the power to propose a future to myself.
Ryan never called to apologize, and I never reached out to bridge the gap. He stayed in his world of manifestation and mockery, and I stepped into a world of reality and self-respect. Losing him didn’t feel like a tragedy; it felt like an eviction of a ghost that had been haunting my potential.